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Glimpses of Grace

As I sat and watched Tyler play today, I began realizing what a great little man he is becoming. I have had so many struggles with discipline over the last 6 months, and for the moment, I believe that the consistency has paid off. He strives to be obedient and a good helper and 90% of the time he is one of the happiest kids you will ever meet. I have also noticed how far a little bit of grace goes with him. Now that he understands what obedience is, he gets really disappointed with himself when he knows he has crossed the line with me. When I see him trying his hardest to please me, grace with his little mistakes come so easy. He seems to grow even more in the times that I will show him grace rather than justice. I think it's because he understands what the consequences could have and should have been for his disobedience.

In realizing this, I began seeing glimpses of God's grace for me. I started to think about who I was and where I was in relation to Him about 10 years ago, and the thought made me shudder. I was off living life the way I wanted to live with little to no regard for God's plan for my life. But, thankfully, he disciplined me and began to break me in order to bring me back to Him. His grace for me is so humbling. And because of His grace, I strive to be all that He created me to be. My desire is to live for Him and stay smack dab in the middle of His will for my life! I still struggle with living this out, but that's why His grace is SO amazing.

I'll leave this post with a couple of verses that keep me depending on God's grace in my life.

Colossians 1:21-22
"Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your mind because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ's physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation."
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Anonymous said…
"grace" is one of those words that makes me sob and laugh all at the same time. i wonder if that's what i'll be doing for all eternity?
June 16, 2008 at 3:11 PM
Andi Hawkins said…
I hope there is no video review in heaven of our lives here on earth. I dont want to se some of that stuff again!! I love this message. It made me remember that God loves me no matter what. I could hear that everyday and it wouldnt be enough.

Tyler is such an awesome kid. I just love him sooo much.
June 18, 2008 at 2:11 PM
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